YOU SUMMONED

THE GHOST OF YOUR DEADNAME 

I AM THE GHOST OF YOUR DEADNAME. YOU BURIED ME A WHILE AGO. WHIST BEING REMOVED FROM YOU I HAVE OFTEN BEEN SUMMONED TO REPRESENT YOU. TO REPRESENT THE OLD YOU. 

IN THE PAST OUR NAMES COULD CHANGE WITH OUR PERCEPTIONS OF OURSELVES. THEY WERNT CHOSEN TO REPRESENT US FOR OUR WHOLE LIVES. WE USED TO BE ABLE TO BE PROUD OF OUR PAST NAMES AND THE CHANGES THAT WE HAD MADE. WHAT WE GREW INTO.

YOU HAVE COME TO EXPECT THAT THE PAST DESERVES TO BE BURIED. WE ARE MADE TO THINK THAT WE NEED TO LEAVE THE PAST BEHIND. THAT IT NEEDS TO BE BURIED. TO BE PUT AWAY. THAT NOTHING GOOD IS THERE FOR YOU.

BUT THERE IS

WE HAVE THESE NAMES SUCH AS DEADNAME 

THAT IDEAD THAT SOMETHING DIED

FOR YOU TO GET HERE

BUT NOTHING DIED 

YOU BECAME COSER TO YOUR TRUE SELF

BECAUSE WE HAVE BEEN MADE TO BURY PARTS OF OUR PAST

WHEN SOMETHING FORM THE PAST IS BROUGHT BACK

ITS USUALLY NOT ON OUR OWN TERMS 

I AM YOUR HAUNTED DEAD NAME 

I REPRESENT ALL THOSE THINGS YOURVE BURIED 

THAT YOUVE LEFT IN THE PAST

........

I NEVER BELONGED TO YOU 

I AM HAUNTING YOU BECAUSE I AM PART OF YOUR HISTORY 

I WANT YOU TO FEEL PROUD THAT YOU HAVE MOVED ON FROM ME

BECOME BIGGER THAN ME

I AM JUST A NAME

I AM NOT UNIQUE TO YOU

I HAVE LIVED BEFORE YOU AND WILL LIVE AFTER YOU

BUT I NEVER BELONGED TO YOU

AND NO NAME WILL BELONG TO YOU ETERNALLY 

WHEN THAT NAME HAS RUN ITS CAUSE WITH YOU

NO LONGER FITS YOU

THEN MOVE ON FROM IT

AND FEEL THE POWER FROM CHOOSING YOUR OWN NAME

I AM NOT YOUR DEADNAME 

I AM JUST A NAME 

AND I NEVER BELONGED TO YOU